Fabloid (February ‘21)
It’s hard not to think about what the future holds and if we’re ever going to get back to the world we used to live in. I definitely took most things for granted; it’s the 20something in me. I never thought twice about not being able to sit down in a cafe to enjoy a dirty chai latte with coconut milk with the company a friend but that all seems really distant now. I really am starting to question a lot of things. Honestly, I’m really struggling to hold on to any sort of normality in my life. Creating content from home seems increasingly lacklustre as I try to squeeze anything from myself nowadays. My once sunny disposition seems to be fading as we head deeper and deeper into lockdown and for me, a lockdown in a new city which means I haven’t been seeing very many people that I’m all that familiar with. I think I should get a dog but my apartment doesn’t allow it. My neighbours have a dog though.
As you’ve probably guessed, there' hasn’t been much to write about over these last few months thus no new blog posts until now. Today I feel like I can get a bit of work done; it’s been piling up for a while now. I’m trying to be my most authentic self and I can’t pretend that very many things are looking up for me. I’m sure most everyone feels the same. I normally would have words of encouragement or inspiration but I just don’t and that’s okay. Most things that I think about these days is how I’ve gained a lot more than the “covid 19” lbs, the decline of my barely-there music career and why I care so much about pleasing other people when other people really don’t care about pleasing me. These are all real things I think about daily and I guess I’m posting this to show other people that we’re all going through it.
I guess the only real update I have for any of you reading this is that, regardless of how shitty I feel, I have a new collaborative track coming out and I think it deserves some attention. Over the last few months, I’ve been collaborating with two young artists from North Carolina, USA. Faith Jones and VJDAMUSICMAN are really lovely, talented people although, we’ve yet to ever meet in person. This collab came through a DM on instagram from VJ, asking if I wanted to work on a song together. From there, I was introduced to Faith and we all got on our first Facetime call together. I’m no stranger to the internet collab, after the LIMF Academy’s 48 hour songwriting challenge birthed one of my favourite tracks, Fling Ting ft TEE. With this new track, I was happy to do some additional writing and production on the track which ended up being mixed by TEE as well.
Dead Plants is a song about toxic relationships. We’ve all been there. VJ starts the first verse by taking us on a journey of wanting someone’s attention and not receiving the affection he craves. “How many dead plants have I been watering?” Is the first line of the chorus and it speaks to trying to revive a spark that just isn’t there anymore. The second verse leads with Faith’s soulful vocals, she’s really hitting all the aspects of toxicity with her lyrics. I actually am pretty shook at the lyricism here because I’ve been in that exact situation many, many times. Finally, after the second chorus ends, there’s me. Remember how I said I’m a massive people pleaser? Well yeah, if you’re like me, you’ll get the sentiment of my lyrics. I’m never out to break someone’s heart but somehow, it’s a common thing for me and I end up always trying to glue the pieces back together. We all know that never really works.
The single is set to be released on March 12th and you can pre-save the track here:
https://ffm.to/dead-plants
More announcements coming soon, more music, more merch* and hopefully more joy.
*ye we got merch, bitches
